Tuesday, December 30, 2008


this photos are up for your own interpretation. lol.
okay enough of the gay stuff. let's move on to something different.

ending the post with yowrenn's butt. lol.
we're done. david. u seriously shld change your bedsheets. you have no idea what's on it.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


it's that time of the yr again. that time where it's time to find time to set our resolution for the new year. lol.

i know what i want. easy.


Wednesday, November 19, 2008


"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." -
-- Helen Keller

meaningful. found it on a certain someone's blog.
applies to a certain someone. you know who you are. lol.

shipdrawing sucks. i discovered that i have this obsession with red. an indecent obsession. crappy stuff, damn i need a life.

"A man can be happy with any woman as long as he does not love her." -
-- Oscar Wilde

Thursday, November 13, 2008


apparently i'm level 99 stupid. wtf. LOL!


depressed shit.

Sunday, November 9, 2008



needed to vent my fustration somewhere.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Fucked up

fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up. fucked up.

rantings of a pissed guy.

Thursday, October 16, 2008


i'm considering this very carefully. i'm thinking it through right now. i know it won't be easy and i'll be sacrificing a significant portion of my life, freedom and time. i've decided.

the next step of my life.

cool vid. lol.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008


WASSSUP. haven't been blogging since my idiotic 'proper' post, lol. attachment finally over. got a week of breather before school starts and i've to busy myself checking out all the pretty girls that i miss so much.

lol. nth much this few mths. been chionging movies with those buggers. hitting the beach tmr, can't wait to tan away all those retardedly weird tan lines i have. lol.

gymming is back in full swing. now i needa run more. tried running 2.4 today. disgusting results. i didn't even hit 3 laps. WTFFFFF. i think i shall concentrate more on cardio this sem.

errr. f1 photos and attachment photos when i get them. shall do i post with them.

secrets are only secrets if you are the only 1 who knows.

irritating bastard.

Monday, September 22, 2008

'Proper Post'

LOL, by popular demand i'm here to do a proper post. lol, actually only 1 person really bothered to jack me about it.

anyway. work sucks. seriously. 1st time i've got to worry about some stupid presentation that i've no idea how to do. during the holidays no less. crapppyyyyy.

alrite done with the proper post.

good nite guys. comment more. =D

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Week 1


i shall do a proper post soon, got some thoughts i need to put to words.

lol, the photos are edited by kelyn that's why i appear to have go skin.


Monday, August 18, 2008


been looking at people using extremely strong words lately, emotionally charged period of time.

2 positive words has less impact as compared to 2 negative words that form a positive thing.

anything is possible.

nothing is impossible.

i'm weird. lol.

Saturday, August 16, 2008


for all it's worth, i tried my best. i've come to understand it was never meant to be. forget it baby.

that's all.

back to square 1. but it's a whole new board.


Friday, August 15, 2008

Working OUT

i have 2 desires now.



that's all for today.

cardio+gym=hot bod.

reduce intake, increase output. that's the way to go.

Monday, August 11, 2008

White sand.

national day, was spent at sentosa!

finally got the much desired trip to sentosa. lol. up to my expectations, babes, sun, sand, ball. fun. =D

i'm burnt.

loving it. i'm gonna try and make it a consistent thing. 1st thing 1st. couple of things on the agenda.

1) buy volleyball
2) find beach goin khakis(not very hard by my opinion)
3) learn how to play beach volleyball properly
4) get a body that'll make those beach hunks jealous.

that's about it. lol.

good times.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Wilting Dreams

although this few days my thinking and emotional state seem to have to taken a space shuttle and flew all the way up, i see people around me sink like rocks to the bottom of the sea.

it saddens me, damping my spirits slightly. i see couples breaking up all over the place. i see friends in denial of the situation they're in, blaming others instead of looking forward. i see friends feeling so upset and down that they can simply just die of sadness. i see friends become so fustrated with others they are probably tearing hair out their scalps.

why? it seems to be a cruel joke of life. never are we all happy or all sad. you'll get people in such low emotional state that even if the happiest thing happened to you, you feel reluctant to share for fear of causing more sadness or just because you know the person won't appreciate that gesture of goodwill.

when we are feeling so upset, you see others having the time of their life, you feel so jealous, so upset, so angry that why do others get to enjoy life, while you, of all people, you have to endure such pain and agony.

i've been on both sides. i know how it feels.

it saddens me. to see such signs.

as much as i like to help everyone, i'm powerless in face of such overwhelming odds. i can only advise and guide, let them figure out how they can survive this low point in their life. look forward and walk on, or you'll sink.

okay, now that i've got that off my chest, i'm feeling much more enlightened. i know what i should do, or rather what i shouldn't do.

i am going to do my best. it is make or break.

good luck guys. see you on the other side.

smile! have faith!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


something changed. feeling relaxed and carefree.

i still yearn for you, but it's different now. i don't how to explain this feeling, maybe it's the acceptance of what can never be.

your smile, i like to know what you're smiling about, i'll probably never find out. lol.

but somehow i don't feel troubled or restless by it.

quite sure you're still in mind. that much is certain, lol.

i'm delirious. feeling lucky.

i'll meet you tommorow. i'm quite sure.


wanrong you're probably the only person who reads lol!

hao hao. hao ting music from gy.


Tuesday, August 5, 2008

What makes you Stranger

suddenly i have a lot of thoughts that i want to put to words, to type out and see for myself what i am thinking about.

cool man.

i'm working hard for it, hard enough? i have no idea, but i know i'm going to give my all to get you.


1st smile in a long time.

dark knight is good. heath leadger. the joker.

you are the soul of the movie.

i can't imagine a sequel without you as joker.

good bye and good night joker.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Wishing upon a Lonely Tree

it is now 4.25am, i'm still awake.

staring at her name, maybe she'll be aware of me if i stare hard enough.

forget it.


i'm losing my sanity.


Saturday, August 2, 2008


sometimes, life is cruel thing. letting me meet someone i desire yet putting her out of my reach. it's killing me, eating away me from the inside, the feeling of knowing it's impossible and yet i simply cannot get her out of my head.

why did i have to meet you? i wonder, if i hadn't met you, i probably will be a much happier and carefree person. but just because you came into existence, i simply cannot ignore your presence, not when i know, i just know, i've met the right one.

why? i ask. why can't i just walk up to you and express how i feel? i do not know, maybe cause i'm too cowardly for my own good? maybe i simply know that i'm not even close to being considered something special to you. but to me, you'll always be the one that captured my heart, without saying a single word, without a single glance at me. i'm besotted with you.

and guess what? you probably have no idea.

irony of life.

dream on.

Friday, August 1, 2008

When the Sun Sets.

evenings are simply not the time for me, like the clock, my energy and emotional level is at the lowest level. i'm crazy.

Thursday, July 31, 2008


i no longer have any hope for this thing, i shall move on.

no hope no hope. a dream was ultimately just a dream.

lofty dreams nonetheless.

doubt i'll ever meet another.

dream on.

Monday, July 7, 2008

Thursday, May 29, 2008


feeling rather low at the moment. too full. den emo-ing abit. i'm a screwed up guy. probably need professional help. let me know if you know any.

be there when needed, know when you're not.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008


farrhan is a gay idiot and he like small boys weijun especially. :D

Friday, May 23, 2008


attitude problem, slap me.

Thursday, May 1, 2008


Everything in life has a silver lining. Even the worst things imaginable, providing they are survived, can make you stronger, or more humble, or more appreciative. -paul tomkins, liverpoolfc.tv columnist.

i like it. we're gonna be back. just watch us. :D

Wednesday, April 30, 2008


woots. haven't been blogging for damn long, nowadays just to busy to blog properly. lol. i'm here today since i have some time before the manu barca match and i ran out of things to do. lol!

hmmm, school's been a bitch, i'm starting to backlog work, and i've got training and soccer. can't keep up! lol! but it's been fun, real fun. checked out quite a few new cca's: canoe, outward bounders, cycling?, and finally started to have some discipline and get my stuff done properly. though i just skipped lessons today. -.- anyway, soccer season is almost over. so i guess that's one thing of my mind.

i shall focus entirely on my cca and studies the coming months. no soccer to distract me, so i guess it'll be alright. scared to death about training tomorrow, heard they're going to step up the intensity, hopefully i'll survive. no no no. i WILL survive training, i need a proper cca. one that i can be proud of.

1 month. that's the limit i give myself to see whether i'm cut out for such stuff. fingers crossed.

liverpool chelsea tomorrow night!

2-0 liverpool. my prediction.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Manchester United

fine. we lost. you win. stop rubbing it in, we know we screwed up badly. is there need to keep on going on and on about how you guys beat liverpool 3-0, so wad if it's 3-0, it's still just a win. god damn it. one day i'm gonna freaking lose it and punch some idiot in the face over a stupid match overseas. one that we cannot control. which reminds me, THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT WHAT LIVERPOOL DOES RIGHT?!?!?! WTF YOU ASKING ME FOR? GET A FREAKING BRAIN YOU FUCKING RETARD!

just a little pissed about losing, sorry.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008


this weekend's soccer has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride. lol. all big 4 teams are now outta FA cup with the only premier league side left being Portsmouth? omg wad a season, and u consider that the league cup is being won by Totterham, meaning that all big 4 teams have missed out on this 2 cups man, and wad else all 4 qualify for Champions League quarter final. wooo! yes! that means Liverpool too! lol.

and so with a 1-0 win over Inter Milan last night meant with a aggregate of 3-0 we went through. to join the other 3 english team and Barca, Schlke, AS Roma, Fernabahce in the top 8! wooo!

one hell of a mad ride, and Liverpool makes it 7 consecutive wins! will the run ever end? i guess not. :D

Sunday, March 9, 2008


simply majestic, liverpool's performance. tonite was against newcastle. 3-0! woooooo.

good. now i can go collect my pay in a happy state of mine, can't wait to start spending! woooo!

Saturday, March 8, 2008


the place where it all started, and where it ends. the journey known as a-lvl's and pioneer junior college. it's over, all over. a-lvl results are out, time has pass. there is nothing we can do to change it.

being in that hall watching people weep in sorrow or whoop in victory has left a stinging taste in my mouth. how i wished i was one of them, whether weeping or whooping, it would have been nice being one of them.

but it is all past and memories, wonderful, sweet, and short. that short 1 year in pj definitely brought out something in me, something i cannot describe.

goodbye, goodbye jc life. that clinging emotions in me to the place has finally left. with the last of my friends leaving, it is finally over.

and a new chapter begins...


Thursday, March 6, 2008


wow. i'm blogging again. holy crap. means i'm emo-ing. lol!

i need to go for more outings. this sucks totally.


woah. haven't blogged in a long long while. lol, but actually i last blogged juz a couple of days back. which is considered frequent by my low standards. even gahyong blogs more den me i think. lol.

wooo! i've hit 78 KG! wahahaha! thinking of hitting 80 den slimming down, but i'm starting to lose weight alr, lol..

went hiking at bukit timah hill today, which was pretty wet and adventurous. lol. fun sial. especially this particular path of the main road that ends up in a steep climb up the rocks. damn fun sial.

haha. din finish climbing it thought. the stones were too mossy and slippery. went back and took the main road. when we reached the summit, IT happeded. RAIN! tons of it. lol. and it left a misty look to the whole place. we tot it wasn't much until we climbed down the hill n looked at it from far. damn nice!


liverpool later. keep me awake!


Friday, February 29, 2008


all of a sudden, knowing about too many things wasn't as well as i expected. it brought some unexpected hurt.

it shldn't be hurting, yet it aches and feels like it's falling into pieces.

i hate this man.



the fear of being alone. damn. almost all my frenz in pjc are running of to army man. meaning i'll 1 grp less of frenz to hang out with. crap.

good frenz old frenz best frenz nice frenz lousy frenz spoilt frenz crazy frenz not-so-fren frenz frenz that simply dun really care abt you frenz that really do frenz that love u around frenz that treat ur existence like nothing frenz that understand frenz that don't frenz that thinks your insignificant frenz that are weird frenz that are around when u need them frenz that simply disappear when u need them and many more frenz.

friends are friends no matter how they look sound taste feel smell like, cherish them, do not treat them like their your servants or your underlings, simply treat them good eventually all the things above will simply just become friends. simple and nice. friends.

I'm getting old and sentimental.


this sucks.

read my blog yeah....


Wednesday, February 13, 2008


work is a extremely irritating thing that everyone wants to get rid off but cannot do without. i hate work. but i need the money. this sucks.

working also means missing out on alot of stuff. time with friends, family, loved ones, my bed, my com, my games and most impt of all, my soccer.

sucks, it simply sucks.

but i need the cash man, not cause i'm gonna spend it on something impt, but simply cause i wanna feel my acc up to at least 5000 by the end of this yr, and this period is the best time to do it. missing out on a lot of things seriously.


lol. i guess that's all. won't be online much, anything txt or call me, i'm always available.

MUST keep me in the thick of things, i don't like being ignorant simply cos i was working. sianzzzz.

wish i had more brainpower.


Wednesday, January 23, 2008


WOOO I'M 19!!!

lol. dunno wad i'm so happy abt. lol. i'm gettin very old. dieeeee.


hahaha. u know who u are. lol.

now. time to take stock of the present i got this birthday, haha.

-big cake(MOT5)
-candy machine(BIFEN)
p.s. it's got red hearts and a big scooby doo face on it....
p.s. i had to wear the purple nail polish for the whole day. lol.

quite a good haul i'd say. coz i've nv actually received gifts on my birthday. ppl tend to juz gimme a treat, lol. so it's kinda nice to actually have stuff to rmb ur birthday by. lol.


Monday, January 21, 2008


hmmm. january 21st now. omfg! 2008's jan is coming to a close. that's fast. so's sch. i think today's the 1st day of the last wk of sch. and i haven't finish my mol! damn it. lot's of backlog. lol.

hmmm.. everything sorta settled down. i guess i didn't make a wrong decision this time. what a rare moment.

i'm gonna focus more i guess. that's what i seem to say all the time. this is like the no. 123456780987642356789o78io067 time i've said it. lol. i dunno why there's alphabet mixed in. dun ask me. lol. the past wk has been. stressful. IAC NA COMPRO proj all cleared! wooooo! feeling liberated. pretty good feeling. and i've resume my gym/run regime. 10km by the end of friday. remind me to run if u see this post. lol.

oh. i watched le grand chef ytd. this particular line touched me.

'when bracken rain falls, it's time to say goodbye'

well, the following are spoilers. dun read if u intend to watch the movie. that particular line was actually part of a song, which is to mean when rain falls in the shape of bracken leaves, fisherman out at sea will not return. and the scene in which the old man sang it was actually very emotional.
i haven't been touch by a movie for a long time, the last time was when i watched world trade centre i think. can't be very sure. dun think i cried but certainly made me appreciate life more. i'm a pessimist, that was established quite a while back, for a movie to make me appreciate what i have is very rare.

pretty nice wk in general.


Wednesday, January 16, 2008


once again. i'm a disappointment to others. how long is it gonna last? my whole life? i hope not, being a disappointment is not nice. i hate it man.

dieeee. emo again? nope i dun emo. i think abt stuff. probably will be a quiet day tmr. very quiet i hope. things got outta hand. which could have easily been prevented. i guess we'll nv be the same again. somehow i can't seem to find my place in this world. i'm always the left out 1. not surprising. has always been for yrs, been lonely is kinda nice.

my weak point is probably the fear of getting into complicated stuff, i'm too laid back. always finding a peaceful solution to everything is not gonna work. somehow i think that things are getting out of hand because ppl want it to. not a good thought.

i'm getting very troubled at this point of time. need somewhere to straighten out my thoughts. that's not really easy. i suddenly rmb back in the pri sch days, our teachers always made us write a journal. i dread writing such stuff. but surprisingly here i am, isn't that wad blogs was initially? an online journal system. nowadays it has become something like a advertisement of sorts. advertisement for ur thoughts.

i can't possibly to not care abt it? juz shout fuck care and walk off? i admit i felt like doing it. from my point of view. i feel that ppl are more mature den u think. they also dun do stupid things. things that my destroy others. it's juz tat odd one in the crowd that does all this. i fucking hate this man.

okay sorta lost control there.

sometimes the best solution is none. thinking abt it always makes it worse. damn. life is such a complicated thing.

for a pessimist, i'm fucking pessimistic.

i consider all the worse possible scenarios before thinking ahead. this qns muz be one of the most used. WHY ME!?!?!?

retaining suddenly seem like a much less stressful option now. even ns feels less stressed.


haiz. had to let all that out somewhere. if anyone happen to read this. and u would like to think abt it. FUCKING DON'T! sometimes it's best to let ppl be.

i dunno wad i'm talking abt at this point of time.

nth seems to be goin right at the moment. i need some stability in my life. that constant value that'll see me through this semester. this sem is fucking screwed up. DAMN FUCKING SCREWED! juz when i thought i could make it through w/o too much worry. some fucktard has to come and do stunt. and now i have to get dragged into it. i'll be terribly honest now. i fucking detest the class. in general the way everyone thinks. i like my classmates, but juz feel that somehow everyone happens to be at the wrong place wrong time. my decisions are mine alone to regret. no one and I MEAN NO FUCKING ONE BUT ME is allowed to judge it.

another thing. judging others by ur own scale is one of the most idiotic thing anyone can do. nv pass judgement onto others unless ur ready to be judge. not by yourself but by others. "thou shalt not pass judgement unto others".

i dunno whether this post will exist for long. doubt it.

shitty week.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008


Update for the sick of updating. reading other people's blog always gets me thinking. are people truly the way they are in front of you?

probably not.

no one's ever 100% true to your face.

life goes on. social life sucks.


Wednesday, January 9, 2008


the revival of this blog? hardly. just needed a place to express certain thoughts.

hope it works?

hope so.

faith, that elusive little girl so hard to find and so hard to keep.