Saturday, August 30, 2008

Week 1


i shall do a proper post soon, got some thoughts i need to put to words.

lol, the photos are edited by kelyn that's why i appear to have go skin.


Monday, August 18, 2008


been looking at people using extremely strong words lately, emotionally charged period of time.

2 positive words has less impact as compared to 2 negative words that form a positive thing.

anything is possible.

nothing is impossible.

i'm weird. lol.

Saturday, August 16, 2008


for all it's worth, i tried my best. i've come to understand it was never meant to be. forget it baby.

that's all.

back to square 1. but it's a whole new board.


Friday, August 15, 2008

Working OUT

i have 2 desires now.



that's all for today.

cardio+gym=hot bod.

reduce intake, increase output. that's the way to go.

Monday, August 11, 2008

White sand.

national day, was spent at sentosa!

finally got the much desired trip to sentosa. lol. up to my expectations, babes, sun, sand, ball. fun. =D

i'm burnt.

loving it. i'm gonna try and make it a consistent thing. 1st thing 1st. couple of things on the agenda.

1) buy volleyball
2) find beach goin khakis(not very hard by my opinion)
3) learn how to play beach volleyball properly
4) get a body that'll make those beach hunks jealous.

that's about it. lol.

good times.

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Wilting Dreams

although this few days my thinking and emotional state seem to have to taken a space shuttle and flew all the way up, i see people around me sink like rocks to the bottom of the sea.

it saddens me, damping my spirits slightly. i see couples breaking up all over the place. i see friends in denial of the situation they're in, blaming others instead of looking forward. i see friends feeling so upset and down that they can simply just die of sadness. i see friends become so fustrated with others they are probably tearing hair out their scalps.

why? it seems to be a cruel joke of life. never are we all happy or all sad. you'll get people in such low emotional state that even if the happiest thing happened to you, you feel reluctant to share for fear of causing more sadness or just because you know the person won't appreciate that gesture of goodwill.

when we are feeling so upset, you see others having the time of their life, you feel so jealous, so upset, so angry that why do others get to enjoy life, while you, of all people, you have to endure such pain and agony.

i've been on both sides. i know how it feels.

it saddens me. to see such signs.

as much as i like to help everyone, i'm powerless in face of such overwhelming odds. i can only advise and guide, let them figure out how they can survive this low point in their life. look forward and walk on, or you'll sink.

okay, now that i've got that off my chest, i'm feeling much more enlightened. i know what i should do, or rather what i shouldn't do.

i am going to do my best. it is make or break.

good luck guys. see you on the other side.

smile! have faith!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008


something changed. feeling relaxed and carefree.

i still yearn for you, but it's different now. i don't how to explain this feeling, maybe it's the acceptance of what can never be.

your smile, i like to know what you're smiling about, i'll probably never find out. lol.

but somehow i don't feel troubled or restless by it.

quite sure you're still in mind. that much is certain, lol.

i'm delirious. feeling lucky.

i'll meet you tommorow. i'm quite sure.


wanrong you're probably the only person who reads lol!

hao hao. hao ting music from gy.


Tuesday, August 5, 2008

What makes you Stranger

suddenly i have a lot of thoughts that i want to put to words, to type out and see for myself what i am thinking about.

cool man.

i'm working hard for it, hard enough? i have no idea, but i know i'm going to give my all to get you.


1st smile in a long time.

dark knight is good. heath leadger. the joker.

you are the soul of the movie.

i can't imagine a sequel without you as joker.

good bye and good night joker.

Monday, August 4, 2008

Wishing upon a Lonely Tree

it is now 4.25am, i'm still awake.

staring at her name, maybe she'll be aware of me if i stare hard enough.

forget it.


i'm losing my sanity.


Saturday, August 2, 2008


sometimes, life is cruel thing. letting me meet someone i desire yet putting her out of my reach. it's killing me, eating away me from the inside, the feeling of knowing it's impossible and yet i simply cannot get her out of my head.

why did i have to meet you? i wonder, if i hadn't met you, i probably will be a much happier and carefree person. but just because you came into existence, i simply cannot ignore your presence, not when i know, i just know, i've met the right one.

why? i ask. why can't i just walk up to you and express how i feel? i do not know, maybe cause i'm too cowardly for my own good? maybe i simply know that i'm not even close to being considered something special to you. but to me, you'll always be the one that captured my heart, without saying a single word, without a single glance at me. i'm besotted with you.

and guess what? you probably have no idea.

irony of life.

dream on.

Friday, August 1, 2008

When the Sun Sets.

evenings are simply not the time for me, like the clock, my energy and emotional level is at the lowest level. i'm crazy.